It has been long years of waiting and hoping that the love I had before will come to reality.
I was telling myself that refresh it and if its is really for me then it will be.
But I was wrong and being to be in the midst of setting free, my heart is pounding of both sadness and joy.

I was happy to realize my self worth and I come to a point of knowing that I don’t deserve him. I deserve someone better and no one else is better than him but of the love of God. The love that He has given to me is unconditional, despite my faults and sins, He still forgives cares and for me. He gives me new life, a life full of spirit and energy driven by a good source. 🙂
The source of my happiness and joy is of God, He made me stronger by breaking my heart. By tearing my soul into pieces and restoring them all to become ONE in HIM, and in doing so, such as HIS will, I have strength to conquer everything.

He planted a seed in my heart wherein I’ll have to cultivate it. To water it everyday by hearing the word of God, by applying it into my life. God is really great.. The Eternal One, no one can defy HIM for He is the All in one.. The truth and the Powerful one… I love HIM so much… HE loves me that much…. Muah!

In regards to the heartaches I have of loving someone who doesn’t deserve me so do I to him, well, I can say, we are not simply meant to be. And I am happy that I have let you go, but I know in my heart, somewhat, he has been a part.. and in losing him, I gain God in my heart. It’s more than enough.. 🙂 Well, setting him free made me realized that I can live without him. I will be  a better person in the near future.. I have learned a lot, but the love will always be there.. But until then, I will stop to hope and expect something to take its place like before.. I am not having such a fantasy, rather, I’ll have to get rest to the heart of my Loving God… the ever Living God.. Whom I really adore… Thank you for everything Lord… Alllah tarah ,kela masha.. mesh ke la ta ra meshe…