I dont want to blame you

I have no right to…

But it ached my heart more than you should know



You haven’t seen my life before

You never experienced to be with me those times

and I cannot force you to understand me



I never ever regret that I have revealed my whole being to you

not even a little of doubt

I trusted you that much that I cannot give such insecurity



But now, you’ve been so cold and damn so far away

I cannot even comprehend through my souls

and my hands are tired to grasp you



Maybe I need this space in life more than of communication

I need to reevaluate myself why is this so?

I am now, in nowhere and don’t know where to go



How I wish and pray to God to be with me

Strengthen me and live within me

So that I can still see the real meaning of the so called “love”



Now is the day, the time for me to asses

Is it love? Is it mercy?

I don’t know, but later or sooner I will know



Maybe I need this space to know my being and to give value to myself

to see what lies ahead of me

and finally to let you feel who you are to me……..